Things to be aware of:

1. Do not start something that you might leave it in half-way. I have wasted most of my time on those things. Leaving half-finished things and a few months later I don't even know 5% of that thing. There is also another factor for doing so,i.e. PERSEVERENCE. I normally tend to give up when things are hard to understand. Saying myself "Ohh. i will do it later" and that "later" never comes to exist. So this point gives out the next point :

2. Finish something to the point at least you remember what u have done by observing 1% of what you have invested in. e.g. If you have studied ruby for 100 hours about how ruby works and its techniques. After a few months later, you should be able to recall most of them by just studying 1 hour. In a simple plain word "Finish-what-you've-started." For the perseverance part, I think I need to have more endurance mentally and physically (pt. 9).

3. Be honest to yourself. If you know something is wrong, SEE it as it is, not as you want to SEE. Outlier said you need at least 10,000 hours (of conscious learning, not just doing the same thing for 10k hours) to master at one subject. It was never easy. Never kid yourself and don't make it a habit. So the next point is:

4. Change it if you know that u have the better method than the way you are doing it right now. If there is no chance, then keep reminding yourself to do the change when the time comes or Make one.

5. Do not let your mind filled with small things. There are TONs of big things to be shoved into your mind. But never have big MOUTH about it or else no one will really want to listen to u if the time comes. But how do we do it? What kind of big pictures are you talking about? It depends, coz it is only you who can find out what's big thing for u. Honestly, I still don't know what is my big thing yet. FUCK. Still finding..... But if i wanna go down one line, i m tempted to press "j". :P

6. If you see everything as chellenges insteade of obstacles, then remind yourself that it is that attitude that could raise you to top. I think it's especially important to remember this fact when u really face problems, big ones. Really, People tend to drop, at leat it's true for me, when things get heavy.

7. There are days I am satisfied with myself that I get things done a lot. Sometimes, I get depressed as there isn't much been done for that day. I think the latter comes a lot than former. Anyway, I wanna raise the ratio 30(sa):70(un) to reverse 70:30. So what do i need to do? Then the next comes to my mind:

8. First things first. Yes. For example, if you allocate 2 hours to play and 2 hours to work. Which one u do first, if it is me, i would play first then do the work with half-assed mind, not with the whole heart. Well that's just me. I m not judging you. Doing so will also used up all of my energies in the first thing (playing). So when I get back to work, I have little energy left to concentrate. It is true especially for no-exercise, sitting-all-day-long guy like me. Yeah... which makes me to the next point:

9. Fucking exercise. It's painful. It makes my muscle ached. It literally kills me. But we have to do it to live as we are supposed to or longer. Yes we have do it if we don't want to end up a few years later diagnosed with Heart-attack, diabetes, (type any disease here).

10. I need to make myself calm down. Not to get too much emotional. Focus on the present and do most of the things with undistracted mind. As you can see, it is difficult to do so. But we have the way to tame our wild wanderous mind. Meditation. Yes it's meditation. That's what I m gonna to do for ADD/anxieties anyway. Sometimes, I hang around youtube for some good 30 min or so. Singing along songs while enjoying youtube mtvs also calm my nerves. PPL who can't enjoy music wouldn't find it that way effective. So find your own way. Do it when u feel stressed, frustrated or feel like need to charge your battery.

To get better ....

How are we getting better at the things that we love? In "outlier" book, it said at least "10,000" hours is needed to master something. I think it's about 4 years of daily practise. What I mean by practise is that "Not" doing something that we are already familiar with but doing something harder, solving bigger problems, etc. We need to be diligent and persevere at things we do.

Let's say if we need difficulty level 3 job for our daily routine, we should practise with at least difficulty level 7 or more so that when the harder time comes as level 5, you will have no problem dealing with it. I guess I am saying this in very blunt form but I hope you get what I mean.

In practicing so, different jobs has different requirements. Some might need actual H/W to practise with or some may not. Anyhow, we can use the simulation method to cultivate our mentalities to solve the problems and to make us stronger or better in problem solving.

To fulfill our dreams!

This kind of topic was/is/will be written by many good authors many times already. But I found this particular essay expressing really good insights. The link is here. Yup, I just post the link and you can read all from there as I am not a fan of plagiarism.

Sometimes we have to make difficult decisions.

Sometimes, we have to make difficult decisions. Some may be necessary and probably some are not. Anyway, it does not take Einstein to understand we all have to face situations like this from time to time if not quite often. The problem is when the time comes, how do we face it? How do we make decisions which aren't biased upon anything? How do we decide which ones are the best for such situations? I guess there are no exact formula or procedures. we do things according to our experience or wisdom or advices (voices from within or from someone else).

It is not easy to have clear head but at least we should remind ourselves to have it when those times come. We all have our own Archillie's heels. Knowing ourselves and letting them out (e.g. anger) in constructive ways will help us a lot in many difficult situations instead of confronting head to head with other parties.

I am sure there may be times that conflict is unavoidable. Some people tend to feel offended easily and some are not. Knowing which one is which will make your life much easier. I don't think we should have our own point of view in every conceivable area but it's extremely important to have a few major ones in one's life. Without them, it will be like living other people lives instead of one's own.

Pushing ourselves is good. But pushing without direction means possibility of heading towards unknown which may be either good or hell. Sometimes, we have choices about how we are going to response but sometimes we just don't have much options left. All we have to do is shove our own complaints up our mouth and face them with "clear head" and "less worries/fear".

Running away may solve the problem in short term, but it makes you feel disgusted about yourself later for being a coward. Eventually, I realized that the only thing matters is how you feel about yourself. That's when the first point(not running away) kicks in. It doesn't matter where you are right now. As long as you feel good about yourselves, you are ok. We are doing fine and we are on the right track. Let your gut feeling sense it. Let your inner light show you the way.

I just remember what I have read from one article. I think the author is Jim Rohm. What he said is "If you keep doing the things that you have always been doing, you will keep getting the things that you have always been getting".

Remind me to lose weight !!!!

Damn.. the last blog i wrote about losing weight was in August 2007, which is nearly 2 years ago and I have pretty much the same weight as of that day.

So far, I have made a few things last month to support my idea of losing weight.

• Joining the California Gym membership
• Sleeping less
• Eating less at night time

Well.. let's see my weight next month but so far I am 110kg fat bastard.<06/Aug/2009>

Now I weigh 102 kg and it seems I could reduce only 8 kg. But I am glad that I now have the routines which make me more healthy and fit. One is walking/jogging of around 5km 2/3 times a week and another thing is going to driving range and hitting the balls which is also 2/3 times a week as of now. <14/Mar/2012>

How do you finish your things early with good quality?

Well... I have been thinking a lot lately about this and sometimes i could do it and sometimes i couldn't even if i tried to. Then i had this idea of last minute rush thing, i.e. acting like you have to finish the thing in your hand within an hour. It works! All the ideas from this rush flow through my brain and certainly, I could visualize the fastest way(may not be the best) to finish it up.

The reason it doesn't work sometimes is that we couldn't create enough rush, thus ending up with same old pushing the nearly deadline thingy. It's not the new thing and also not that i just found out but i guess it would be nice to write it down somewhere else when i am in mood. That's pretty much it.

Shadow

There are many sayings we've heard when we were children. My elders used to say that girls are like the shadow that they love to run away when you try to chase them and they will follow you if you try to run away from them.

I am sure most people have already heard of this thing but I am not sure how many of us(guys) have faced the real shadowy situations. When this kind of situations happen, most of us don't know what to do next, including me.

Don't follow/pursue them. Yes, it's as simple as that. But we all know that it's really hard to control your emotion of trying to do the next worst thing(chasing them).